You hurt me…

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You hurt me…

We have all experienced it.
It happens daily I’m sure.
I wonder why.
In a world with smart phones, iPads and computers, it is virtually impossible to be unreachable. Unless intentionally. I don’t know about you but I am weary of excuses, diversions and blatant lies.
It’s amazing how many texts, calls and emails are ignored and put off.
“I didn’t get your call/text..”
“I was asleep..”
“I didn’t get your voicemail…”
“I forgot..”
The worst is when you are completely ignored by a loved one you know is available.
I totally understand being busy and in the middle of something. Yet what you are telling me is;
” I don’t respect you or trust you enough to tell you the truth.”
“You are not important to me.”
“I could really care less about you.” That’s all I hear when I hear the excuses I didn’t even ask for.
Personally I’m a person who tries to answer everyone’s call or text. I miss some. Most of the time I’m able to reply in less than an hour. My conscience won’t allow me to go much longer.
So why do I feel like I am alone here?
Why is it I am available to everyone most hrs a day and they are available…ummm for 2 sec to send a 7 character text, if that?
Then suddenly are gone!
Bye-bye!! ADIOS!!
I wish they would at least write “bye”, then I would know they didn’t run into an overpass pole at 75 mph while texting.
I’ve heard people complain about texting with someone then calling right after only to get the voicemail. This happens to me all the time. It’s like..
” Umm we were just texting for 5 minutes… and I call because it’s easier to just talk! Where did you go??”
Oh not for you?
Hmmm why is that?
Why are people hiding?
What’s happened to communication? Oh it’s challenging?
It’s not always what you want to hear? I offend you?
Then why am I in your circle?
Fill me in please!

Confrontation.
Communication.
Interaction.
Reality.

Seems these words are what people are avoiding.
If I’m not making you feel good all the time, I’m not worth your time.
When was the last time you called me to see how I was doing?
When was the last time you invited me over for dinner?
When was the last time you sent a text to say you were thinking of me?
Do you even know what’s happening in my life?

I know everything about yours!

I’m positive I’m not alone here.

In fact I think we are all alone here.

Gone are the days of handwritten letters, un-rushed phone calls or even returned calls. Texts. Emails…
Of course I’m guilty here also, but I’m trying with everything I have to love others like I want to be loved.
Is it me?
Am I alone here? No I believe not.

Seems the more connected we are the less communication we have.
Sad.
It makes me want to give in also. To say ” The hell with it!! I’m done with the hurts, and all these selfish, self- focused people!!”
Yet then I would be giving in to the same thing that has overtaken those who hide behind electronics.
I won’t do it.
I refuse.
I love you.
I’m here for you, always will be.

Today the text you missed said this,
“You hurt me.”

I forgive you.

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